I slept until like 6 pm today. Ridiculous amount of sleep for sure! But last night totally exhausted me. I was working all by myself, as I will be doing again tonight. It's really hard to get all those picks done when I'm alone. And binning was a freaking joke. I got like 3 departments binned and that's IT. They have only one truck tonight so it will be less freight, but that means they will be done with departments sooner and wanting their picks. It will probably be 3 am by the time I finish picking them all. *sigh* I don't want to be there tonight. At least it is hopefully my last night, I have to check with my manager about that. I'm scheduled this week to have Sun & Mon off instead of my usual Sat & Sun. I have to make sure with Anthon that I can work my regular days. I want to be able to go to Jason's wedding reception at least. And tomorrow is also the Scottish festival and Paul wants to go to that. I would like to go too. It's a good time.

I know I haven't been posting, but there's not a whole lot to post about. I got wedding pictures from the photographer developed. Paul and I still have to figure out which ones we want to have for 8x10's and his parents have to choose which one they want to have on their wall at home too.

Still no babies. I know a lot of people think that is a good thing. And while I'm disappointed, I think God must have a better clue than I do of what is right for us right now.

Mom is coming up to Michigan in 2 weeks and she'll be staying with me (this time around). We'll need to make sure that they can stay in the chocolate room without all of our junk in the way. Paul might have to put his stuff in the wolf room for the time being. We'll see what we can't get done this weekend.

I should really be cleaning or something right now... Man I hate cleaning.

Cat was meowing non-stop today. Very annoying when you are trying to sleep. After Paul left for work I turned the TV on to Animal Planet and he was quiet after that LOL.

Got my wedding and engagement bands soldered so now they are one ring instead of 2. And they did the rhodium dip so it's all shiny & new looking again. You would be surprised how much they yellow in just a few months!... Well more the engagement band and that's almost a year old now. But they are soooo pretty! I told Paul I could almost blind someone if they caught direct sunlight. Haha.

I just finished reading the Lightning Thief. I want to read the next book, but Wal-Mart only carries the most recent of the series (forgot the name of it), so I'll have to look elsewhere. Maybe I should go to Meijer now before work so I have something to read at lunch?? I like the books okay. I mean they are definitely written for a younger group than me, but I kind of like seeing Greek Mythology being brought into the present, even if at times it seems a bit ridiculous. Anyone else reading anything good?

Note to self: buy cat litter in the morning.

Wow, I should go now. later everyone.

So the wedding is a week away.

Things with the house are going well. I have to get back there (I'm at my sister's again) and work some more on painting and whatnot. Just wanted to let you know that I'm still around and things are going well.

See ya around! Have a great Easter everyone!

You know, on a scale of 1 to 10 this New Year was probably like a one. Just another day. And not spent with Paul. I was just the third wheel to Rachel & Steve's night. How sad for me. Watching Dog the Bounty Hunter from 6-11:45 is not the way I would suggest spending the last hours of 2008.

Also, it's probably wrong to be so concerned that I'm getting no comments anymore. Considering I hardly ever post and when I do I've got nothing to say. I should feel a whole lot happier (about life in general) than I do right now. Maybe it's because I can't spend any money this week because after I pay my rent I will only have the smallest of financial cushion in my checking account. I'm NOT taking anything more out of my savings. There's already less in there than the beginning of the year and that's the opposite direction of what I would like.

I'm glad that Paul and I are finally concentrating on taking care of our remaining wedding details. I don't like feeling unprepared.

Okay, I'm done now.

Happy 2009 everyone! *hugs & confetti* May it be a good year for love, friends, and family! (and economically would be a nice dream too).

The year is nearly over so I thought maybe I should write a little something about it.

The good: Or rather the great, I got engaged! :)

The bad: I had to spend tons of money to the hospital for that STUPID chest pain incident in October.

What I'm looking forward to in 2009: My wedding (duh!). Seeing friends and family on my big day.

I could get someone I work with fired if I really wanted to. I don't really care for the guy, but he is one more person to share the workload with and I don't want to get rid of anyone who will be working on the weekends. Otherwise they might rethink changing my off days. (Which I will have starting the 10th YAY!)

Anyway, this guy at work (everyone calls him Bear) found a 44D bra in a return cart we had to sort and asked me what I would do if I had titties that big. *eyeroll*. He's a bit too vulgar for me to be comfortable. But I don't want to get anyone fired so I haven't said anything. He talks like that to EVERYONE. If he's not careful and a manager is around he's going to do the job himself.

Not much of an update, but I have other things I SERIOUSLY need to concentrate on. Cake, flowers, photographer! I need to get the decisions made so that I don't feel so unprepared for my big day.

The possibilities of life right now are really exciting me. I wish I had time to write about it right now, but I'm at my church and Dan and I have to leave for the high school to pick up the kids for small group. I just wanted to let everyone know that I'm still around!

Sarah I hope you got the pics this time.

Leann I hope your email response will thrill me! You know what I'm saying. *hugs*

Paul and I stopped in a bookstore in the mall and there was a book that was a bunch of authors talking about the Twilight series. I would really really like to have it, but it was $15 and a "borders exclusive" so I don't get to find it in my wal-mart. I couldn't do it. I'm going to have to add it to my wish list. There's not much on it yet, only Coupling DVDs. I can't remember what the book was called. I know it had Dawn in the title though.

I have to go to stupid work tonight. Something has to mess with my good mood I guess. And I would really love to go to bed!

I don't think I'm going to make it to church tomorrow what with my lack of a nap today. I really do sleep too much. I'll probably have Paul wake me up so that I can at least have dinner with everyone.

*whines* I'm so sleepy!

Rose gets off work in like fifteen minutes (or less) and then she is going to photocopy some stuff from this book that she checked out for me (How to "I Do" planning a wedding in six weekends or less). there are tons of checklists in it about what to be sure to have and questions that you should ask vendors. I don't know if I need all of the information, but it would be better to have it then not.

I've got the rest of my time here (and don't forget another 2 hours at the library tomorrow) to read more of whats in the book and take notes on good ol' notebook paper.

I don't know what else to say.... But I've got a little time left to me... I've been emailing SoCy back and forth during these 2 hours and have really been enjoying it. It almost reminds me of tearing threads with Leann and Sarah and Leslie.. Those were good times.

Okay... ten more minutes now.... Come on foooooood!

Do you think that when I do get engaged I should have a wedding page? Or maybe I was thinking of making like a facebook group for it that people could join if they want info about the details and everything. What do you think about that?

Oh, I shouldn't be going on about this like I am... I shouldn't be talking about marriage to everyone when I'm not even engaged yet.

Please no one bug Paul about when where and do you have a ring. It's frustrating for him. I know that it will happen in good time. Paul told me 3 months into this relationship that he was looking for a wife, if he didn't think it was me he would have told me so long before now (3 years is a lot to waste when you are going on 28 years old). Just let him study in peace (like I'm trying to do -- now).

Paul takes his registry on the 29th. He tells me that the next thing on the agenda is his $800 doctor bill and THEN (drumroll please) an engagement ring. I told him that even though the element of surprise isn't really there anymore, I still think he should get down on one knee and ask the question. He says he will certainly do something special.

I can't wait!

Paul scheduled to take his registry on July 29th. So maybe when I get back from visiting Rose there will be good news for me. :) I hope I hope I hope.

I had a late lunch with Rose today. It was a good time. We talked about our goings on and a little about my future wedding (which is hopefully not sooo far in the future). It always feels really good to get to hang out with her. It doesn't happen nearly enough anymore. We talked about how we're "old" now and how we knew each other before we were "old". Haha. And we talked about how we've changed, or rather how I've changed, since high school. Time sure does give you perspective. I'm glad it's still so easy for us to hang out. She told me how it's not so easy to spend time with her other friend from high school because they've both changed so much and don't have so much in common anymore. We came back to Paul's house and played pass the pigs because I thought it was the kind of game she could appreciate.

It's nice to know that when I do get engaged Rose is all about helping me plan it out. I definitely want to give enough notice that my trips can make it because that would be the best gift they could give me.

*sigh*

I wish I knew how much longer I had to wait. It seems like a more real possibility now than it did before Paul graduated. Now there's just one little (or big) test in the way...

Sorry about my one track mind.

*hugs everyone*

Everyone say a prayer or cross you fingers, or whatever it is that you like to do. Paul wants to take his registry at the end of July and if he passes, soon thereafter he should hopefully be proposing. But he must pass first. So if you could hope with me that would be awesome.

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I am making plans with Rose to come and visit her after Andy and Niki's wedding. I'm not worried about driving by myself anymore because I went with mom up to the bridal shower and drove both ways no problem. I'm excited that I'm going to finally get to hang out with her again. It's been too long. We're going to cook and possibly eat out somewhere, I don't know. And she said that any partying we do will be non-alcoholic because she has decided to stop drinking. I'm really proud of her for that. I told her that was no problem and I'm very used to having non-alcoholic good times.

She's going to have to work a couple hours of every day that I'm there, but that's no problem because I'll get to be right there (she works in a library) either reading books or using her computer to write in here. *gasp* You might actually see an update from me!

As far as books go... I've read Twilight, New Moon, and Eclipse (the special edition with the excerpt from Breaking Dawn). I'm pumped up for a new book in August. I even convinced my sister to read Twilight. She has a couple of library books to read first, but then she's going to start on it. I hope she likes it too! I'm really glad that my sister's taken an interest in reading finally.

Anyone know a good book to read in the meantime? Or maybe a few books. It took me 2-3 days per Stephanie Meyer book. Of course those really caught my interest so I read them faster. I am currently reading 'The Magicians Nephew'. Paul said it was pretty good so I'm starting on that. Shouldn't take me long at all to finish that one though.

That's all from me. Have a great week everyone.

I didn't get the morning position I wanted. Apparently they are not taking anyone off of overnight at the moment. *sigh* It's all bull if you ask me. They did this to Dan too. Making up lots of excuses. Just wait. I'm sure sooner than later someone else on my shift will be moving over to days. What will the excuse be then, hmm?

Paul has been playing God of War II for like 2 weeks now. He has beaten the easy mode and is now playing either normal or hard, I don't know which. Even when he gets frustrated and says "I can't beat this!" he's still back at it the next day. He never really gives up. So here I am, typing away.

I finally got around to reading Da Vinci Code and I just started Angels and Demons. Don't know what I think about it just yet. Lately I have really been wanting to just READ. I read Eragon and Eldest for the second time. Does anyone know when Inheritance comes out??

I had my yearly gyno appointment today. No problems. He says I'm good for another year or 10,000 miles whichever comes first (haha). I told Paul that and he goes "Checkin' under the hood, my baby's like a car." Sheesh. I did get a new BC though. Just going to do the pill thing now. Considering that $4/mo. is much better than $30 (for nuvaring). And this one says I can refill it 15x in the year so I'm not going to run short of my next appointment like happened this time (and I still don't know why that happened). So tomorrow morning I will start with the pills. I figure I should be up around 7:30 pretty much everyday. It's so hard to pick a regular time when my schedule is so irregular.

I had lunch with Dan today. The second week in a row. I should clarify that this is Dan from Bulgaria, not my youth pastor. We ate at the subway in Wal-mart. It was nice. I told him I might go to visit his wife tomorrow. It's been way too long since I have seen her and Ivett. I miss them! I've got to see the baby!

I keep reading these notes and memos by the time clock at work and thinking that I could do a much better job than whoever is typing these things up. They spell ladder "latter" (and believe me I know they meant ladder), and generally screw up one or two words in everything... Even in really short announcements ("All overtime must be cut, no exceptiions"). They don't proofread ANYTHING, I swear. Just something that bugs me a little. I'm sure whoever does it gets paid more than I do (it's not that hard to get paid more than me).

I got my federal refund check yesterday (though I just discovered it in the mailbox this morning). Went straight into my savings too. I haven't put anything in there since before I moved into my apartment. It was long overdue to actually put something away.

I put in for vacation time in July. the 25th through the 28th. Though I do have the 29th & 30th as my regular days so it's really just shy of a weeks vacation. That is for Andy's wedding and then possibly visiting Rose. I would really like to do that! After that I have one week of vacation time left that I am saving in hopes I will be able to use it for a honeymoon (I have lofty hopes).

*hugs* Miss you everyone!

Sarah, I'm scared. I'm only getting one wisdom tooth out, but I worried about how much it's gonna hurt. It's horizontally impacted. Another thing that bugs me is my insurance is not going to cover sedation, which I am sure to need. So that's $300 out of my pocket today, not counting my copay and the percentage that I must cover. Yikes. But mostly I'm scared of pain. Especially since I have to go back to work on Friday night. Not looking forward to it.

Just wanted to get that off my chest.

How is everyone? Haven't been one to talk in a while, but I miss you guys and I'm still reading up on all of you for sure. *hugs*

Happy Birthday to LEANN, aka Gremmie, aka Shayne, aka Bubba (is that right? am I the only one who remembers we did prison names??)

She is one of the coolest sweetest most awesome-est (haha) people I know and I hope her birthday is everything she wants and more. I love ya girly!

It's also my sisters birthday (my real sister, not my trip). She doesn't have the internet, but I have called her and wished her a happy birthday twice now. I'm going to her place next week. We're going to celebrate Ashley's birthday (the 21st) and watch the premiere of the new season of Next Top Model. It's a guilty pleasure I can share with my sis, ya know?

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The winter retreat I went on was a really amazing and spiritually powerful and enriching time. I really felt a God connection that I haven't felt in a long time and it was really uplifting. I also had a really great personal talk with Dan and I feel like a weight has been lifted from me. I am so so glad I went on this retreat. Miracle Camp is the best! The speaker was Terry Prisk and he was amazing, not a dull moment at all! I think he has a website that is terryprisk.com. And the band, Attaboy is fantastic, you should look them up too. I should have bought the CD, but I was being a tightwad.

Love you all, life is good! :)

Right now, my birthday being around the corner is a little depressing. This year, like last year, I find myself thinking about the place I am in life. I'm incredibly happy with my relationship with Paul, but so many other things are no good. I hate that I'm still in the same manual labor job. I hate that everything scares me (including going back to school). I feel so lost and I don't know what to do. And turning another year older and being in that same place!!!!! I look at my youth pastor and think that he was 2 years younger than I am now when he started working at my church (straight out of college). And while he works hard, I know he loves his job. I am so jealous. I don't believe I want to do what he does. I want to volunteer at church for sure, but pastoring isn't my thing.

Paul is sick right now. 100.4 degree temp. He was sick all night and called in to his clinical site. I'm chancing sickness to take care of him as much as I can. I hate that he's sick. Part of it is a little selfish though. Because he's sick we can't be all kissing and cuddling up together. *sigh* Mainly though, I don't like seeing him all miserable, I want him to get better soon. I love him so much. I don't even want to go to work tonight. I want to stay here and take care of him.

I got a birthday card in the mail from my DOCTOR. Wouldn't that be funny if it was the only card I got... *sigh*

Sorry for the lack of happiness. I'm not trying to bum you out. Later!